Diagramming Your Shadow

the void is this thing that acts like winter

Crow + the Poem is a running diary-poem, a love letter to the ether from Lex Orgera.

Notes from something or other

I’m all over the place, displacing 
current events by waking up at four 
to worry about this other time 
I woke at four to the sound of drumming. 
That feeling that someone was inside 
the house, watching me sleep. 

When a word like visit dreams 
itself into existence, you find a way
not to be a dick, not to tell it to buzz off.
Even if it’s misshapen, wrong-
headed, like that sinister figure
in the dark. Concentrate long enough

& the word becomes a ghost,
breathes on your neck, laughs
at your dumb jokes. I guess I’m saying
that the word is a living appendage
of the void & that the void
is this thing that acts like winter,

arriving in such a panic the sunflowers
are still blooming in the snow.
The trick to forward movement 
is to diagram your shadow. Today’s meme:
what a year this week has been—
I will never be grateful to clocks.

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